i really don know wat to say d. i started to anti everyone at home. ever since grandpa spoke to daddy in that way n what the "stupid lady" told my grandparents.... everything totally change. i know things wont go bak to the past. because of that incident i started not to talk to my aunt. i have thought of asking my dad to find another job or run his on business but i know it wont happen. he even say that if he were to run his own business then wat would happen to the current business which he put in all his heart n hard work inside the company. i just don understand why my grandpa behave in such a way. i know i don have the rights to judge on him,but he himself should know which son of him cares him the most. who is right n who is in the wrong.... why must he sound at my dad in that way??? why must he not trust my dad??? i decided not to go to new house after that incident but i still went there last week...in the end i . found out that he somehow blame me for telling my mum wat my aunt did to me? Am i in the wrong??? maybe i shouldnt have told my mum. what is worst is i talk to him he somehow like don wanna answer me. this make me more heartache. but he wouldnt know how i feel.... so from that day onwards i decided that he call me only i ans i wont make any phone calls to him.... whatever he ask only i will do other than that don expect much from me. i really hate that stupid lady.... make my whole family into this condition.... who she think she is???? though my action is gonna hurt them but sorry i don wanna be hurt anymore..... they just know how to sound at us why don they sound at them???? i always think bout their difficulties but will they stand on our possition n think from our view.... i don wish the family members to break but what to do. every time prayers i told the god let my family members in good health, studies and everything goes on smoothly but what happen in the end... she try to ruin my family members...causing so many ppl to be upsad... i really don know how to communicate wif them anymore. i know my grandma cares us alot n i know she knows how i feel ..... but sorry i have made up my mind not to go there anymore. to stop all the arguements n stop from being blaming by other people i would rather not to go over. by this my life would be happier n no worries... if can i really wish that she does not exist o move far away but i know is impossible. wat to do forget bout it lor...
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Monday, November 2, 2009
i don know my decision is right o wrong. i don know why i keep on thinking the same thing. is hard to move on. but nobody understands me. why. is it that difficult to have someone to talk to. i also don know. the scar that u leave behind is always there. i really don understand y. i really hope this would end soon. is not fair for u to be in this situation. but i wouldnt wanna let go. what shall i do?
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
hope you will read bout it and give me a reply.....
the feeling you gave to me is hard for me to express...maybe you just don know wat you want.... i don know why are you avoiding me... maybe to u u aren't avoiding me but i do feel it... don know why this few days the same question keep on bugging me.... i don know whether shall i text u o what... but it seems that i text you you would nvr reply... you maybe thinking that i might think too much... but i do feel so... i just don know how to tell you... maybe you don know what you want o you just don like ppl to 'fan' you... maybe is because of my attitude i always text you makes you feel that i'm very 'fan'. i don know. you wouldn't wanna tell me anything. i'm so lost now... i sent you msg through msn you did not reply... i sent u through facebook you did not reply too.... i seriously don know wat you wan.... i'm so lost now......tell me what shall i do??? hope you will reply me as soon as possible......
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
hope you have read it... don find me anymore
to a cousin of mine
i just hope that after you finish reading this you wont find me anymore. you make me scare of you. i don't even know how to face you. is impossible for us to be together.... we have blood relationship... stop bugging at me.... u make me feel that you very 'fan'. don ever call me anymore.... stop asking wat happen to me.... nothing happen... is just that after the movie u say u wanna be my bf for one day.... u just makes me feel irritated.... i feel cold but u don have to touch me.... though we r cousin but u r playing the role which is more than a cousin.. i said i don need the bag u keep on push to me... you make me don know how to reject it.... then u come n hold my shoulder all of a sudden.... what is this mannn..... u r just too much.... don watse your money to sms o call me... i won't ans ur call.... no matter wat you do i won't fall for you... plz understand that there is a gap between us... n if u cross the gap... you will know wat will happen.... if u continues behaving like this i'll let your sister know what you said to me on that day.... n to be frank wif u.... i did not want to join you all for dinner is because i don know how to face you... i don wan you to have hope on it..... that's y i ask ah chen to send me home.... and i don know what i've done till you have this type of feelings towards me... but all i could tell you know is better stop loving me...o you will get hurt in the end.
i just hope that after you finish reading this you wont find me anymore. you make me scare of you. i don't even know how to face you. is impossible for us to be together.... we have blood relationship... stop bugging at me.... u make me feel that you very 'fan'. don ever call me anymore.... stop asking wat happen to me.... nothing happen... is just that after the movie u say u wanna be my bf for one day.... u just makes me feel irritated.... i feel cold but u don have to touch me.... though we r cousin but u r playing the role which is more than a cousin.. i said i don need the bag u keep on push to me... you make me don know how to reject it.... then u come n hold my shoulder all of a sudden.... what is this mannn..... u r just too much.... don watse your money to sms o call me... i won't ans ur call.... no matter wat you do i won't fall for you... plz understand that there is a gap between us... n if u cross the gap... you will know wat will happen.... if u continues behaving like this i'll let your sister know what you said to me on that day.... n to be frank wif u.... i did not want to join you all for dinner is because i don know how to face you... i don wan you to have hope on it..... that's y i ask ah chen to send me home.... and i don know what i've done till you have this type of feelings towards me... but all i could tell you know is better stop loving me...o you will get hurt in the end.
1/07
i had a very terrible dinner today. hmm my dad will be going to overseas tomorrow... so he planned to take us out for dinner.... i suggested to go Teo Seng restaurant but my dad said he don wan. so we went to a shop that recomended by my dad... the food there was awesome. but who will ever think of the chef had a quarrel wif his wife n everyone is afraid of it. some customers even don dare to sit down to have a meal...
lol can hear so many harsh words comming out frm them... my mum ask my dad will ur children come here... n the best thing is the 3 of us said no.... then my youngest brother.... normally he will be the first person to finish eating n he will wait for us.... but this time he is the last to finish... he was like having a great time watching the drama.... my second brother even more funny... he cant even eat... he said it was just to noisy... what a day mann.....
have u ever experince this???? n the chef came n say sorry to us...
lol can hear so many harsh words comming out frm them... my mum ask my dad will ur children come here... n the best thing is the 3 of us said no.... then my youngest brother.... normally he will be the first person to finish eating n he will wait for us.... but this time he is the last to finish... he was like having a great time watching the drama.... my second brother even more funny... he cant even eat... he said it was just to noisy... what a day mann.....
have u ever experince this???? n the chef came n say sorry to us...
Sunday, June 28, 2009
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pJxsgEqy14w&feature=related
everyone has his o her angel. but do i have mine???
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UGRDZKbzaQ8&feature=related
though is just 15 days but it is a sweet time.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vQwpji7onQA&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vw6YK1BUWSk&feature=related
how i wish someone would dedicate this song to me. haiz....
everyone has his o her angel. but do i have mine???
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UGRDZKbzaQ8&feature=related
though is just 15 days but it is a sweet time.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vQwpji7onQA&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vw6YK1BUWSk&feature=related
how i wish someone would dedicate this song to me. haiz....
a sad day
things always go upside down. why must this happen? am i in the correct path o it is wrong frm the begining. i'm not regreting but just don want you to get in trouble. what shall i do? i don wanna end it but it seems like i have to? plz tell me wat to do? i love you n i don wanna let go... but will i be in the wrong if i don let go? can someone tell me what shall i do? will you let go the relationship o will u continue. i need a reply. will i end up get hurt again???? i don know??? i just hope it wont.think twice before any decision. don hurt me. n don hurt urself.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
none
"life is short. you just don know when will you leave the world. the only thing that you can do now is to appreciate what you have in life now... if you have choosen it to be in that way..... stand up, stay strong n go for it... no one can determine your future only u yourself... even the pathway that u have choosen is hard to move on, don give up easily... have a few tries first. so think twice before making any decission. do not regret in future... All the best!
Horoscope (i find it kinda accurate) is in MALAY
Capricon(22/12-19/01)
Wow! Nampaknya kamu akan berjumpa semula dengan si dia yang pernah begitu rapat denganmu. Terimalah si dia seadanya kerana ia mungkin petanda yang kamu sebenarnya bakal bersatu.
AKADEMIK: Perlu sentiasa lakukan brainstorming untuk pastikan hasil kerjamu sentiasa mantap.
WANG: Ada bahyak hutang perlu kamu langsai. Jadi jangan terlalu boros, ya!
Cinta: Terlalu sibuk dengan kerja membuatkan kamu hampir terlupa untuk bercinta. Jangan begitu, kamu juga berhak untuk menikmati hidup ini.
Aquaris(20/01-17/02)
Kamu perlu mencari teman yang benar-benar 'sekepala' denganmu untuk meluahkan segala rase yang terbuku di hatimu. ini kerana, tidak semua teman boleh menyimpan rahsia yang kamu luahkan itu.
AKADEMIK: Tertekan dengan bebas tas yang semakin sarat. Tenangkan dirimu kerana penyelesaiannya pasti akan muncul. Teruskan berfikir positif.
WANG: Jangan terburu-buru berbelanja, sebaliknya pilih pada hanya yang perlu sahaja.
CINTA: Elakkan terus bertegang urat dengan si dia kerana ada kemungkinan ia boleh memutuskan hubunganmu.
Pices(18/02-19/03)
Sekiranya mempunyai idea baru, jangan takut untuk berbincang dengan teman-temanmu kerana pandangan mereka juga akn membantu kamu menghasilkan yang lebih baik.
AKADEMIK: Rancangan perjalanmu agak tidak lagi lewat seperti selalu.
WANG: Nampaknya kali ini kamu terlebih berbelanja untuk berhibur. Jadikannya pengajaran untuk masa akan datang.
CINTA: Kamu pasrah dengan cinta yang da. Kalau jadi, jadilah.... Kalau tidak, kamu juga tidak kisah dengannya.
Aries(20/03-19/04)
Walaupun sibuk, kamu perlu sediakan sedikit masa untuk keluar bersama teman-teman. Jadi tidak lama-kelamaan hubungan kamu dengan mereka boleh terputus begitu sahaja.
AKADEMIK: Hari-hari yang kamu lalui semakin sibuk.
WANG: Manfaatkan wang bonus yang kamu terima itu dengan sebaiknya.
CINTA: Ha... nampaknya cintamu tidak lagi bertepuk sebelah tangan.
Taurus(20/04-19/05)
Pandangan daripada teman-teman banyak megubah pandangan kamu terhadap sesuatu perkara. Hati-hati agar tidak terpengaruh perkara negatif.
AKADEMIK: Sokongan teman-teman banyak membantu kamu meraih apa yang kamu impikan selama ini.
WANG: Elakkan berbelanja pada perkara yang kurang penting.
CINTA: Biarpun kamu rasa agak terdesak untuk meraih cinta, jangan rembat sahaja.
Gemini(20/05-19/06)
Kamu berpeluang untuk berjumpa dengan teman lama dan kehadirannya memberikan banyak kebaikan dalam hidupmu. Jangan putuskan lagi hubungan yang kembali bertaut ini.
AKADEMIK: Kamu perlu bijak merebut peluang untuk menambah pengalaman.
WANG: Bakal mendapat durian runtuh.
CINTA: Hasratmuingin akhiri percintaan dengan perkhawinan memang bagus. Tapi kamu perlu berfikir banyak kali kerana berkhawin bukan perkara main-main.
Cancer(20/06-21/07)
Setelah langsung tidak mempunyai masa untuk berehat ekoran tugasan yang bertimpa-timpa. Pastikan kamu manfaatkan hujung minggu ini untuk berehat sepuasnya. Kamu pasti akan kembali berasa segar!
AKADEMIK: Ambil masa untuk bersendirian bagi mengembalikan tumpuanmu terhadap apa yang kamu lakukan sekarang. Ehmmm, hasilnya pasti akan lebih baik daripada sebelumnya.
WANG: Kalau kamu memang mempunyai peruntukan berlebihan, tidak salah kamu membantu orang lain yang lebih memerlukan.
CINTA: Gagal bercinta bukan bermakna kamu perlu terus melupakan segalanya. Bersedia untuk meraih cinta baru.
Wow! Nampaknya kamu akan berjumpa semula dengan si dia yang pernah begitu rapat denganmu. Terimalah si dia seadanya kerana ia mungkin petanda yang kamu sebenarnya bakal bersatu.
AKADEMIK: Perlu sentiasa lakukan brainstorming untuk pastikan hasil kerjamu sentiasa mantap.
WANG: Ada bahyak hutang perlu kamu langsai. Jadi jangan terlalu boros, ya!
Cinta: Terlalu sibuk dengan kerja membuatkan kamu hampir terlupa untuk bercinta. Jangan begitu, kamu juga berhak untuk menikmati hidup ini.
Aquaris(20/01-17/02)
Kamu perlu mencari teman yang benar-benar 'sekepala' denganmu untuk meluahkan segala rase yang terbuku di hatimu. ini kerana, tidak semua teman boleh menyimpan rahsia yang kamu luahkan itu.
AKADEMIK: Tertekan dengan bebas tas yang semakin sarat. Tenangkan dirimu kerana penyelesaiannya pasti akan muncul. Teruskan berfikir positif.
WANG: Jangan terburu-buru berbelanja, sebaliknya pilih pada hanya yang perlu sahaja.
CINTA: Elakkan terus bertegang urat dengan si dia kerana ada kemungkinan ia boleh memutuskan hubunganmu.
Pices(18/02-19/03)
Sekiranya mempunyai idea baru, jangan takut untuk berbincang dengan teman-temanmu kerana pandangan mereka juga akn membantu kamu menghasilkan yang lebih baik.
AKADEMIK: Rancangan perjalanmu agak tidak lagi lewat seperti selalu.
WANG: Nampaknya kali ini kamu terlebih berbelanja untuk berhibur. Jadikannya pengajaran untuk masa akan datang.
CINTA: Kamu pasrah dengan cinta yang da. Kalau jadi, jadilah.... Kalau tidak, kamu juga tidak kisah dengannya.
Aries(20/03-19/04)
Walaupun sibuk, kamu perlu sediakan sedikit masa untuk keluar bersama teman-teman. Jadi tidak lama-kelamaan hubungan kamu dengan mereka boleh terputus begitu sahaja.
AKADEMIK: Hari-hari yang kamu lalui semakin sibuk.
WANG: Manfaatkan wang bonus yang kamu terima itu dengan sebaiknya.
CINTA: Ha... nampaknya cintamu tidak lagi bertepuk sebelah tangan.
Taurus(20/04-19/05)
Pandangan daripada teman-teman banyak megubah pandangan kamu terhadap sesuatu perkara. Hati-hati agar tidak terpengaruh perkara negatif.
AKADEMIK: Sokongan teman-teman banyak membantu kamu meraih apa yang kamu impikan selama ini.
WANG: Elakkan berbelanja pada perkara yang kurang penting.
CINTA: Biarpun kamu rasa agak terdesak untuk meraih cinta, jangan rembat sahaja.
Gemini(20/05-19/06)
Kamu berpeluang untuk berjumpa dengan teman lama dan kehadirannya memberikan banyak kebaikan dalam hidupmu. Jangan putuskan lagi hubungan yang kembali bertaut ini.
AKADEMIK: Kamu perlu bijak merebut peluang untuk menambah pengalaman.
WANG: Bakal mendapat durian runtuh.
CINTA: Hasratmuingin akhiri percintaan dengan perkhawinan memang bagus. Tapi kamu perlu berfikir banyak kali kerana berkhawin bukan perkara main-main.
Cancer(20/06-21/07)
Setelah langsung tidak mempunyai masa untuk berehat ekoran tugasan yang bertimpa-timpa. Pastikan kamu manfaatkan hujung minggu ini untuk berehat sepuasnya. Kamu pasti akan kembali berasa segar!
AKADEMIK: Ambil masa untuk bersendirian bagi mengembalikan tumpuanmu terhadap apa yang kamu lakukan sekarang. Ehmmm, hasilnya pasti akan lebih baik daripada sebelumnya.
WANG: Kalau kamu memang mempunyai peruntukan berlebihan, tidak salah kamu membantu orang lain yang lebih memerlukan.
CINTA: Gagal bercinta bukan bermakna kamu perlu terus melupakan segalanya. Bersedia untuk meraih cinta baru.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
to whom it may concern. lol
you walk into my life. you light up the walkway for us. you bring me out from the darkness... you gave me the inspiration to go on everything. you are always there whenever i need you... you're so great. no one can replace you in my heart.. you're just someone special n someone important to me. i just hope that you won't light up the walkway for me half way n you say u have to leave.... don treat me as wat my x treated me... something which i like the most is when we were on the phone i did ask you when do u find out that u actually fall for me... n u answer me ' when we were young'. i don know how far is true but i choose to believe it. no harm giving each other a try. lol.
though we can't meet and talk to each other often, but so long as our love towards each other r strong we can actually make it. love you! the song below is specially dedicated to you.
well i'll just stop here... n is to be continue.
though we can't meet and talk to each other often, but so long as our love towards each other r strong we can actually make it. love you! the song below is specially dedicated to you.
well i'll just stop here... n is to be continue.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
specially dedicate to you!
You know
our love was ment to be
the kind of love that lasts forever.
and i want you here with
me from tonight
until the end of time.
You should know
everywhere i go
Always on my mind
in my heart
in my soul
baby.
you're the meaning in my life
you're the inspiration
you bring feeling to my life
you're the inspiration
wanna have you near me
i wanna have you hear me saying
no one needs you
more than i need you
and i know
yes
i know that it's plain to see
so in love when we're together
now i know that i need
you here with me
from tonight untill the end of time.
You should know
everywhere i go
Always on my mind
you're in my heart
in my soul
you're the meaning in my life
you're the inspiration.....
wanna have you near me
i wanna have you hear me saying
no one needs you more
than i need you
you're the meaning in my life
you're the inspiraton
our love was ment to be
the kind of love that lasts forever.
and i want you here with
me from tonight
until the end of time.
You should know
everywhere i go
Always on my mind
in my heart
in my soul
baby.
you're the meaning in my life
you're the inspiration
you bring feeling to my life
you're the inspiration
wanna have you near me
i wanna have you hear me saying
no one needs you
more than i need you
and i know
yes
i know that it's plain to see
so in love when we're together
now i know that i need
you here with me
from tonight untill the end of time.
You should know
everywhere i go
Always on my mind
you're in my heart
in my soul
you're the meaning in my life
you're the inspiration.....
wanna have you near me
i wanna have you hear me saying
no one needs you more
than i need you
you're the meaning in my life
you're the inspiraton
17/6
i witnesses a new born baby... hmm it was a baby boy... when the clock strikes 3.45 p.m. this little baby is out... but towards the night the doctor came in and says that the baby doesn't really want to eat... so they have to take the baby's blood to go for a blood test. They are affraid that the baby might have infection... What happen next is even worst... after visiting my aunt, we went to the A&E department to wait for my uncle to settle some bills. then on our way to the car, my grandma fell down.... luckily nothing happen to her just that she has some scratches on her palm n knee....Thank god mann.... i was very tired today... besides accompanying my aunt, i went to visit my grandaunt who just done an opperation. haiz... so many things happen all of a sudden...
What a busy day i had?????
What a busy day i had?????
Friday, June 12, 2009
how to have a long lasting relationship?
5 step for a long term relationship
trust
comparrison
mutual undertanding
endurance
patience
trust
comparrison
mutual undertanding
endurance
patience
especially for Miaw Ling n Wei Fong
Best friends we are ,
Best friends we'll be,
For always forever,
You and Me!
Longer than a phone call,
Deeper than the sea,
All this belongs to us,
You and Me!
Put it in a bottle,
Never let it free,
keep it in your heart,
You and Me!
I hope you read this poem,
Remember it for me,
Look after it with care,
You and Me!
Best friends we'll be,
For always forever,
You and Me!
Longer than a phone call,
Deeper than the sea,
All this belongs to us,
You and Me!
Put it in a bottle,
Never let it free,
keep it in your heart,
You and Me!
I hope you read this poem,
Remember it for me,
Look after it with care,
You and Me!
13/6
i am looking forward for today's outing but.... hmm it suppose to be a great day today but everything just go upside down... suppose to go out movie in the afternoon but who knows mummy don allow....so have to call off everything.... haiz...y can't things just follow what i wan it to be...why must everything turns out incorrectly... hope i don't disappointed someone.... no matter wat...i'll still find ways to go out wif...just give me sometime...will try to make it...
since everything turns upside down... then i plan to go for a hair cut later.... however there is something which makes me worry about.... mum ask me to go her friend's shop for hair cut... i'm just afraid that i wont be able to have the hair style that i wanted... haiz.... after hair cut might be going swimming wif my cousin... after so long i didn't swim don't know whats gonna happen to me.... just hope everything will be fine....
n hmm that aunt which everyone in the family (including my grandparents) hate the most will be back from outstation today...no more peace in the house.... how nice if she could stay there n not to come back.... haha....everyone in the house would actually be glad.... my life will be terrible when she is at home.... no peace, alot of stress, no harmony, n etc....
going to start working on Monday.... what my life would be after that??? i've no idea... people usually says that working at your dad office will not have stress....but let me tell u is wrong... just can't afford to do any mistakes.... if not sure get scolding till very 'jia lat' de....
next week is going to be a busy week for me.... as i said in the previous paragraph starting work next week n uncle Ah Wei getting married.... my granduncle ask me to go over to his house help him to pump the ballons... then the next morning go to his house n help him wif all kinds of things.... but something cheer me up, that is my cousin from kl will be back, n the monkeys,turtles,kangaroos,lion king will have a gathering....and zoo is going to reopen soon.... definately will have lots of story to talk about...u know la gals....sure start to gossip....haha... although it is going to be very tired but it would actually turns up to be great...looking forward for the day....I'm waiting.
ok will stop here.... n to be continue... Have a nice day!!!!
since everything turns upside down... then i plan to go for a hair cut later.... however there is something which makes me worry about.... mum ask me to go her friend's shop for hair cut... i'm just afraid that i wont be able to have the hair style that i wanted... haiz.... after hair cut might be going swimming wif my cousin... after so long i didn't swim don't know whats gonna happen to me.... just hope everything will be fine....
n hmm that aunt which everyone in the family (including my grandparents) hate the most will be back from outstation today...no more peace in the house.... how nice if she could stay there n not to come back.... haha....everyone in the house would actually be glad.... my life will be terrible when she is at home.... no peace, alot of stress, no harmony, n etc....
going to start working on Monday.... what my life would be after that??? i've no idea... people usually says that working at your dad office will not have stress....but let me tell u is wrong... just can't afford to do any mistakes.... if not sure get scolding till very 'jia lat' de....
next week is going to be a busy week for me.... as i said in the previous paragraph starting work next week n uncle Ah Wei getting married.... my granduncle ask me to go over to his house help him to pump the ballons... then the next morning go to his house n help him wif all kinds of things.... but something cheer me up, that is my cousin from kl will be back, n the monkeys,turtles,kangaroos,lion king will have a gathering....and zoo is going to reopen soon.... definately will have lots of story to talk about...u know la gals....sure start to gossip....haha... although it is going to be very tired but it would actually turns up to be great...looking forward for the day....I'm waiting.
ok will stop here.... n to be continue... Have a nice day!!!!
6/7
it will be the ending for me.... is pointless.... ppl who read this don ask me wat happen... n don start to question me.... it will make me be happy if no one ask o question me wat happen on this day..... " its time we talk about it.. i cant drag u too long.. scare u step deaper n get hurt more... after my exam we'll talk.. I cant drag on.. we need to settle it..." don like it...HATE IT!!!!! is a deep scar to me..... u light up everything but y don't u walk it? y leave it in this way? you know i don like it? but y u keep doing this... y keep hurting me????? WHY?????Why????? u r eveil.....seriously hate u.....u make the whole thing dark...u turn my life into darknesss..... don know how to face u in college.... can somebody just help me to walk out of this darkness...haiz
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Valentine Day!!!!!
It was a lovely Saturday morning.... i went to school as usual but i'm a little nervous as i'm going for my first Progress Test 1 for T1 n T2.. i've been studying the whole night n hubby accompany me at the same time.... i went to college with the present i've bought for him as Valentine Day gift.. hmm however i did not give him immediately as i'm shy... 9.00 a.m..... exam began...i went in to the classroom and began to find a place for me to sit.... hubby went for his T7 class.... 2 hrs of exam... most of them can't really concentrate as the seniors are to noisy... haizz.... wondering what is so funny till everyone come down and start laughing.... shhh.....ppl having exam la...lol.... then the admin staff James come into the class as the clock strike 11.... after collecting the paper he don't allow us to go out... wondering wat is wrong???? so everyone has to follow the instruction give lor... few minutes later... hubby walk into the classroom with both hands at the back... then as he walk towards me i could see him holding a bouquet a flower... hmm...it was a very big surpprise to me as he told me that he doesn't have enough money to buy something for me...so i taught that i won;t be receiving any gift from him... but who knows he actually plan it one week ago... so romantic mann.... then after that i went to study for my second exam...
but whatever i study it can't go in anymore as i'm too happy wif it n my mind full of the picture the way he gave me the flower, the way he wish n bla bla bla....
after finishing my bot papers i went home.... i put a night in Bukit Beruang....hmm when i as on my way home hubby text me asking me to go out for a movie tonight.then i ask him to ask his parents first... n he really went to ask his parents....wat a shocking news.... his mother ask him wanna go out with gf a? must bring n let me c first??? it was so scarry mann... however his mum ask him to get permission from his dad...so he went to ask his dad... n his dad allows him to go...unfortunately...my parents don allow me to go out as they know that i'm in a relationship... i dissappoint him already...though he say he is not but i know he is dissappointed..sorry hubby.therefore he went out wif hius friends....
he call me when he is home n something happen that night...lol....this time no more 30 o 15 minutes d...infact it is loger hor.... haha....then after the talk we went to bed as both of us are tired n i have to wake up early to attend Travin's wedding....
that's my Valentine Day celebration... thanks for giving me a memorable Valentine Day hubby... muaks
but whatever i study it can't go in anymore as i'm too happy wif it n my mind full of the picture the way he gave me the flower, the way he wish n bla bla bla....
after finishing my bot papers i went home.... i put a night in Bukit Beruang....hmm when i as on my way home hubby text me asking me to go out for a movie tonight.then i ask him to ask his parents first... n he really went to ask his parents....wat a shocking news.... his mother ask him wanna go out with gf a? must bring n let me c first??? it was so scarry mann... however his mum ask him to get permission from his dad...so he went to ask his dad... n his dad allows him to go...unfortunately...my parents don allow me to go out as they know that i'm in a relationship... i dissappoint him already...though he say he is not but i know he is dissappointed..sorry hubby.therefore he went out wif hius friends....
he call me when he is home n something happen that night...lol....this time no more 30 o 15 minutes d...infact it is loger hor.... haha....then after the talk we went to bed as both of us are tired n i have to wake up early to attend Travin's wedding....
that's my Valentine Day celebration... thanks for giving me a memorable Valentine Day hubby... muaks
Thursday, February 12, 2009
12/2
hmm... morning.... dear call me few times but i didn't manage to ans as i am too sleepy.... i call him bak after seeing his miss call.... we talk for awhile....but don know wat happen suddenly we have some arguement... he ask me to said something but i told him i have nothing to day then he hung up my call...dear do u know how much it hurts ma???? i seriously hate people hang up the call is just like u don respect that person at all....actually wehenever u did this is really killing me softly.... i just don know how to tell u directly...i hope u will never have hard feelings after reading this.... hmm but luckily after that we ok back...but if this thing happens often then i'm afraid that it might spoil our relationship...seriosly very very worried that this would happen lor.... hope that it will be find one day.....
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
10/2
nothing much happen today... i went to college kinda late as i have no class today... just go there n do some group discussion....dear taught me t5 n he went for he class after teaching me the way of answering the questions....
after studying for sometime.... i went to surf the net.... go n read dear's blog.... bak kut teh's word make me and si kar cannot stand of it.... we decided to go kampung pantai to eat the yam rice... without wasting our time, we quickly pack our things n went downstairs....just imagine that we r rushing our time n the seniors can play wif us some more... the took the door's key n don wanna give it to us....luckily we manage to reach there on timw... lol...if not we sure blamed the seniors one....
after makan we went bak to college.... dear's class was about to end at that time... i went in to the classroom n continue studying.... hmm i took si kar's phone to listen to songs.... RIGHT NOW NA NA NA.... lol.... then when i try to stretch myself suddenly i saw head next to me... it really gives me a shock of my life mann... he was standing behind me all the while listening to wat am i singing... i hit him like mad mann...hope it doesn't hurts u dear.... muaks dar sayang bak k.... then he went out n i continue studying lor.... n he came in again without any sound... this time he behave himself d... he hug me instead of scared me... lol.... i felt warm at that time... then he went out again for his lunch...
after his lunch he came in n tell me that he wants to go upstairs n do his assignment....so i plan to follow him... but he is so mean mann... he go up himself without waiting for me.... sob sob mann.... i sat beside him and it was so cold at the time as the aircond was directly blowing me... i told him that i was cold n i taught that he will hug me mana tau he lower the temperature...kek si wo mann.... lol.... i continue studying n he continue doing his assignment.... but watever i've study just can't get into my mind....maybe because he was there lor...make me cannot study... but he also the same la... instead of doing his assignment he disturb me...lol...hold my hand.... hug me n tickle me.... since he doesn't want to do his assignment so i used the laptop to listen to song....i sat on his leg n he hug me....it was a sweet moment mann...lol...muaks thanks dear...
then at night..... my mood suddenly all gone just because of my stomach ache...ish.... so pain till it can takes my life away at that moment.... i was chatting wif him at the same time lying down on my bed.... i ask him to continue his assignment but he go n write his blog... so naughty mann... then i ask him to call me after his assignment.... cause i wanna take a nap...but i was too tired n did not ans his call...sorry dear....slept for an hour n saw his msg... then i call him... we did not talk much... he asked me how i feel... then i told him that still pain.... then he ask me to take warm water n go to bed.... lol.... then we end our conversation.... this is the first time we talk not eve 15 min mann.... till midnight... suddenly miss him so much.... but don dare to call him.... don wanna disturb his sleep cause he will be having class tomorrow.... muaks...love u lao gong
after studying for sometime.... i went to surf the net.... go n read dear's blog.... bak kut teh's word make me and si kar cannot stand of it.... we decided to go kampung pantai to eat the yam rice... without wasting our time, we quickly pack our things n went downstairs....just imagine that we r rushing our time n the seniors can play wif us some more... the took the door's key n don wanna give it to us....luckily we manage to reach there on timw... lol...if not we sure blamed the seniors one....
after makan we went bak to college.... dear's class was about to end at that time... i went in to the classroom n continue studying.... hmm i took si kar's phone to listen to songs.... RIGHT NOW NA NA NA.... lol.... then when i try to stretch myself suddenly i saw head next to me... it really gives me a shock of my life mann... he was standing behind me all the while listening to wat am i singing... i hit him like mad mann...hope it doesn't hurts u dear.... muaks dar sayang bak k.... then he went out n i continue studying lor.... n he came in again without any sound... this time he behave himself d... he hug me instead of scared me... lol.... i felt warm at that time... then he went out again for his lunch...
after his lunch he came in n tell me that he wants to go upstairs n do his assignment....so i plan to follow him... but he is so mean mann... he go up himself without waiting for me.... sob sob mann.... i sat beside him and it was so cold at the time as the aircond was directly blowing me... i told him that i was cold n i taught that he will hug me mana tau he lower the temperature...kek si wo mann.... lol.... i continue studying n he continue doing his assignment.... but watever i've study just can't get into my mind....maybe because he was there lor...make me cannot study... but he also the same la... instead of doing his assignment he disturb me...lol...hold my hand.... hug me n tickle me.... since he doesn't want to do his assignment so i used the laptop to listen to song....i sat on his leg n he hug me....it was a sweet moment mann...lol...muaks thanks dear...
then at night..... my mood suddenly all gone just because of my stomach ache...ish.... so pain till it can takes my life away at that moment.... i was chatting wif him at the same time lying down on my bed.... i ask him to continue his assignment but he go n write his blog... so naughty mann... then i ask him to call me after his assignment.... cause i wanna take a nap...but i was too tired n did not ans his call...sorry dear....slept for an hour n saw his msg... then i call him... we did not talk much... he asked me how i feel... then i told him that still pain.... then he ask me to take warm water n go to bed.... lol.... then we end our conversation.... this is the first time we talk not eve 15 min mann.... till midnight... suddenly miss him so much.... but don dare to call him.... don wanna disturb his sleep cause he will be having class tomorrow.... muaks...love u lao gong
9/2
hmm woke up early in the morning as i have t3 class today... i woke Mr Wong up... he is so lazy mann... he is actually awake but refuse to get up from the bed.... if he is next to me, i'll sure tickle him mann.... make sure that he go wash up....lol.... hmm dear dear...if u wan me to wake up next time just tell me... i would also like to wake u up.... this is wat a wifey should do ma... muaks...then we chat for half an hour only as i have to go for class n he has to bathe his dog and continue doing his assignment as he has a presentation this friday(13/2).... i was wondering can he do his presentation when i'm around???...
hmm then bout one smtg he came down to attend his class...i was chatting with him at the same time... i told him that i went home d...but actually i didn't... i lie to him.... sorry dear... then i tell him that i miss him very much.....hope to c him now la this la that la..... then i appear in college...it really gives him a shock of his life... i guess he never expect that i'm going to college to have some group discussion for our Progress Test 1.... dear is just a minor surprise n u tell me that u gonnaa get heart attack...wat if i give u a major surprise.... wat will happen to u a???? lol....
then at night when he was trying to do his assignment... his ex disturb him again.... sometimes just don know wat she want mann.... she make me got very piss off at that time... she promise me that she won't disturb him anymore.... yet she still disturb him often... wat is this mann????really really very pek chik of her at that time.... i make a phone call to her n sound at her properly asking her not to disturb my man anymore.... jia ming was actually listening to our conversation by calling to my 012 number.... i can die talking to her mann... she just don understand a single things... what the ...... mann??? then i ask her to call jia ming n settle with him everything on that day.... they talk for so long mannn..... dear do u know that dar will actually jealous wan ma.... lol... actually while waiting for dear to call back dar actually fall asleep...just know y i will got up all of a sudden n gave u a call... when i know that u was talking to her i wanna hang off my phone.... but u ask me not to...so i just listen to ur conversation wif her lor..... she did ask u that do u still love her.... the answer u gave it to me really gave me a shock lor.... u told me that u still love her.... do u know how hurt is it o not... u make my heart beat stop at that moment mannn....but after listening to at u say second time then i know i missunderstand u d... u say yes u do love but u love shereen n not her.... by that time i could only relax myself mann.... lol.... luckily she stop all the nonsense mann....
luckily dear feel better after i talk to him mann... if not i will kill that lady..... ish.... then we continue our conversation till almost 3.... we did continue our 30 n 15 min stuff... though it is not long but is fun.... dear i enjoy it.....then he knows that i'm tired d... he ask me to go to bed.... though i don wanna end our conversation at that time but still have to lor... cause i know he is tired too....
hmm then bout one smtg he came down to attend his class...i was chatting with him at the same time... i told him that i went home d...but actually i didn't... i lie to him.... sorry dear... then i tell him that i miss him very much.....hope to c him now la this la that la..... then i appear in college...it really gives him a shock of his life... i guess he never expect that i'm going to college to have some group discussion for our Progress Test 1.... dear is just a minor surprise n u tell me that u gonnaa get heart attack...wat if i give u a major surprise.... wat will happen to u a???? lol....
then at night when he was trying to do his assignment... his ex disturb him again.... sometimes just don know wat she want mann.... she make me got very piss off at that time... she promise me that she won't disturb him anymore.... yet she still disturb him often... wat is this mann????really really very pek chik of her at that time.... i make a phone call to her n sound at her properly asking her not to disturb my man anymore.... jia ming was actually listening to our conversation by calling to my 012 number.... i can die talking to her mann... she just don understand a single things... what the ...... mann??? then i ask her to call jia ming n settle with him everything on that day.... they talk for so long mannn..... dear do u know that dar will actually jealous wan ma.... lol... actually while waiting for dear to call back dar actually fall asleep...just know y i will got up all of a sudden n gave u a call... when i know that u was talking to her i wanna hang off my phone.... but u ask me not to...so i just listen to ur conversation wif her lor..... she did ask u that do u still love her.... the answer u gave it to me really gave me a shock lor.... u told me that u still love her.... do u know how hurt is it o not... u make my heart beat stop at that moment mannn....but after listening to at u say second time then i know i missunderstand u d... u say yes u do love but u love shereen n not her.... by that time i could only relax myself mann.... lol.... luckily she stop all the nonsense mann....
luckily dear feel better after i talk to him mann... if not i will kill that lady..... ish.... then we continue our conversation till almost 3.... we did continue our 30 n 15 min stuff... though it is not long but is fun.... dear i enjoy it.....then he knows that i'm tired d... he ask me to go to bed.... though i don wanna end our conversation at that time but still have to lor... cause i know he is tired too....
8/2
hmm... i had a hard time to wake up.... talk to dear till too late d guar.... i went to college as usual... Mr Koh's class could make me sleep mann... lol... he always like 'ss' lol... hmm... 4 hours of costing..suffering mann... when the clock strikes two.... i quickly pack my things n went downstairs.... just feel like going home to talk to dear...but o... dear got piano class till 5... so i got to wait for him lor... 3hrs mann...miss him so much.... hehe.... bout 4 smtg i went Jusco wif my family members.... we spent bout RM 4oo over shopping for food... lol.... hmm.. wat happen after shopping???? hmm i got scolding from my dad as i use my phone till Rm 300 over... he grounded me like mad mann... luckily dear was around... he make me cool down... then i talk to him as usual before we go to bed... i remember that i asked him something.....
i asked him ' How come u will suddenly fall for me?' guess wat he ans... hmm he ans me ' cause i know u fall for me lor.. then i asked him how he know.... he replied ' cause u always look at me during MS time lor.' now gues wat i ans him...'u nvr look at me then how u know i look at u wor?' then he starts to change topic.... he said' most of the time u look at me when i look at u back u sure to turn away wan' lol... that actually shows that u look at me most of the time lor... doi doi...
hmm after that... we contuine the 30 min and 15 min stuff... so funny mann...nvr expect it could happen... it really proves that dear is actually naughty....lol.... after hours of talking n because of the 30 n 15 min things.... i know he is tired d.... then we end our conversation n went to bed.... n we met each other in dream.... lol hehe
i asked him ' How come u will suddenly fall for me?' guess wat he ans... hmm he ans me ' cause i know u fall for me lor.. then i asked him how he know.... he replied ' cause u always look at me during MS time lor.' now gues wat i ans him...'u nvr look at me then how u know i look at u wor?' then he starts to change topic.... he said' most of the time u look at me when i look at u back u sure to turn away wan' lol... that actually shows that u look at me most of the time lor... doi doi...
hmm after that... we contuine the 30 min and 15 min stuff... so funny mann...nvr expect it could happen... it really proves that dear is actually naughty....lol.... after hours of talking n because of the 30 n 15 min things.... i know he is tired d.... then we end our conversation n went to bed.... n we met each other in dream.... lol hehe
Saturday, February 7, 2009
4/2(missing you!!!)
something happen today too..
hmm but only me n dear knows what happen rite..
dear i agree wif ur blog... lol...
i'm looking forward for the next time and i hope dear look forward for it too.
we've been together for 3 weeks and we actually found out that our relationship getting closer and closer...
ming i love u too...
i agree with wat DAP said durring MS class...lol...i kinda happy when i hear that
but there is someone who take marrige for fun only... hmm don know who a???
lol to me 15 min o 30 min is still not enough....lol
lao gong better be careful o... muaks...
love u lots....
hmm but only me n dear knows what happen rite..
dear i agree wif ur blog... lol...
i'm looking forward for the next time and i hope dear look forward for it too.
we've been together for 3 weeks and we actually found out that our relationship getting closer and closer...
ming i love u too...
i agree with wat DAP said durring MS class...lol...i kinda happy when i hear that
but there is someone who take marrige for fun only... hmm don know who a???
lol to me 15 min o 30 min is still not enough....lol
lao gong better be careful o... muaks...
love u lots....
20/1 a surprise
i went to college half an hour earlier today just to spend time with him... i went to my classroom to put my stuff n talks to Si Kar for awhile.. after talking to her then i went out to meet him... he suddenly come behind me n hug me.... it really gives me a shock at that time n i nvr expect that it would happen n i shouted... then Si Kar came out to have a look... lol.. but luckily dear manage to hide himself... then i went into the classroom that we always meet.... he did hug me again n we start talking funny things... it was a sweet memories to me... i really miss the room mann... if i can turn back the time i would rather go into the room again.... but hiddng inside there is not really good lor although dear told me is ok... but there are many ppl walking around there lol...
19/1
something happen on today.... i really disappointed him alot... all of a sudden i call him n tell him that we have to end our relationship... this is because i'm being influence by my frens... they really said something which is really bad and i really cant take it.... then he talks to me nicely and ask me to think bout it again... actually i know how much he loves me at that time... luckily he mange to bring me up when i'm down... and everything comes back to normal.... hmm... if i still stick to my decision o ending up our relationship.... i guess i'm gonna regret for the rest of my life mann... dear thanks for everythin...love forever...muaks...
our second day
18/1- it was a new day n a new begining... just as usual he text me in the morning and chat as usual after his piano class... nothing much happen today.... as usual he will call me at night n talk to me... we can spend hours of talking... the more we talk the more we r awake... but because of he is schooling tomorrow therefore we have to stop the conversation.... that is our second day... hehe...
our first day
17/1- what makes me say yes to him? is actually the story that he tells me.... it goes like this.... ( it is a story bout a couple... the guy make the gal angry...so in return the gal does not care bout him.. the guy kept calling her but she refused to ans him although she was not angry of him.... she is just trying to be merajuk....as a result the guy met with accident n their relationship have to end up like this...) what he say is true... do not do something that will make u regret next time... we may not know what wold happen in future...so long as we have try on it then it would be ok.... so after listening to the story n think back once again then i say 'OK' to him lor.... that is how our relationship starts...
Friday, February 6, 2009
16/01- i went to class as usual... after the first class i went out with few of my frens to Yeast Bakery.... as it takes time for us to wait for the food to be cooked, resulting us to late for our second class... so as we know that we r late...therefore we run bak to college as fast as we could... however the lecturer did remind us to be punctual in future... during his class it could be said as the boring class lor...lol.... as i don really like history...luckily DAP could make me awake at that time...lol... hmm 2 hours 30 minutes of lecturing...... finally the class is over.... everyone stood up and went outside.... the same goes to me... Carrie went bak earlier compare to me..... then suddenly someone appear in front of me.... he ask for my phone number and i gave it to him..but i have a very bad impression on him as the previous class he is too fierce to me... but when the moment i step into the first class i kinda fall for him d...maybe love at the first sight guar.... but the only thing is that i know i will not have any relationship wif him... this is because i don understand him.... but after the second class it makes me change my mind that there is something going to happen between us.... after giving him my number i went to office... he did text me after that....hmm we just chat for a few minutes then have to end it as his phone got no more battery.... the last message he send me is 'I'll call you tonight'. at first i taught he was just saying only.... so i did not bother bout it and went to bed as i was too tired at that time... bout 11 something my phone rang...surprisingly he call me... it really give me a shock.... he did ask me the same question again.... hmm i told him the same thing...however there is something that really makes me agree with it... hmmm if u wanna find out more y i said i agree with it...then read the next post.....
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